Saturday, March 5, 2011

Patience!

I pray for patience every single night. Because I lose it every single day. I am the queen at overreacting. And, since Mark has been gone, I tend to get crazy. Each night, I think tomorrow is sooo going to be different. I'll be patient and won't get upset.

Something really irks me about Adalyn crying in the backseat. I'm sure it's because I can't help her, so she just screams alone.. Which breaks my heart. I hate how upset I get. And a lot of times it just makes me want to cry.

She has recently been sick with an awful hacking cough and a congested & runny nose. So we spent our Saturday at the doctor's office. We waited a full hour past her appointment time (joy...) and finally saw the on-call doctor. He was absolutely the worst pediatrician I have seen and said she was FINE.

I love how I wasted our time like that today. My "fine" baby has woken up twice (and went right back to sleep) coughing her little head off. And the women at the baby boutique thought she had croup!

Ugh.

Oh, back to the story - I lost my patience again today at the doctor. I was so frustrated with waiting so long for nothing, and it was her nap time on top of it all, so she was in a bad mood.

Looking back, it wasn't a big deal at all. It seems so silly to get worked up over nothing. But in those moments, I just lose it.

Tomorrow will be different. I won't get upset if she cries during the church service. Or wails in her car seat. Or wakes up 30 minutes after her nap. Nope. Tomorrow I'll be patient :)




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5 comments:

  1. I definitely feel you on that one for sure! This week especially since we both have been sick.

    Sorry to hear about the awful doctor! I hope she gets better soon and that she really is "fine".

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  2. I'm not married and don't have a child but I still can't imagine how hard it is for you to be doing all of this without Mark. I hope June comes fast for you guys, and thanks for what you're both doing! And I hope Miss Adalyn starts feeling better soon, and that you get your patience! Happy Sunday! :)

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  3. You're so much more patient than I am. This is (sort of) why we're not having kids.

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  4. ACK! I would have refused to leave until I saw a ped who would actually take my child's health into consideration. Especially with everything going around in BG right now! :o I know of *at least* 5 babies there who have RSV (and I'm not saying Ad has that, I'm just making a point!) so you'd think a Dr would be more thorough! :| I hope she feels better. :(

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  5. I feel ya on this one! It is so frustrating when you want to be calm and relaxed, but you feel not in control at the same time! I just wanted you to know you're not alone! It is so hard to remain calm all the time! I wish I could say it get better (and I hope it does), but I don't know that for sure...I'm still dealing with it lol...but I am sure(hope) it does get better!

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