Sunday, February 7, 2010

unashamed.

Fort Cox turned 1 year old this past Friday. One year ago, I was adjusting to Mark being gone. It was tough at first.. though, admittedly, I did become "used" to his absence. After only a couple weeks, keeping our marriage alive through letters was the norm. And it was okay.

Looking back at this post, I can't help but smile. I missed him so much. We were so new to the military, and we were both adjusting. Yet, I had no idea how he was really adjusting. I was on my own. And, looking back, I can't believe I survived it.

And today, Mark left at 8am to embark on his first TDY (temporary duty) in Pittsburgh. It was rough and sad. And I'd be lying if I said I didn't get a little teary-eyed. And he'd be lying if he said he didn't get emotional too. And I would think that we'd be "pros" at being apart from each other. After all, we've been apart for the majority of our marriage.

But we aren't pros, and it sucks.

I hope we never become "pros" at being apart from one another. Being "attached" to each other is a total understatement. I have his cologne ready to spray on my pillow tonight so I can pretend like he's really here.


Piper and I will be fine this week. But our home has a gigantic Mark-shaped hole, and we miss him dearly. If you're interested, click HERE to find out how Mark and I met - and why he is solely responsible for me earning a C in Anatomy 2.


Truthfully, I'd probably get some rocks thrown at my face for saying that I miss my husband (can I get an amen??), who will be gone all of five days. But I'm unashamed. When you love someone so deeply, you miss them no matter what.

Piper and I miss you, Mark!


23 comments:

  1. That's sad that you would get rocks thrown at your face for missing your husband. Jason and I have only spent one night apart since we've been married, and it was awful. You should always miss your other half, no matter what the length of time is that you are apart.

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  2. Eh.. some people whose husbands are deployed could get really offended by it.. And they'll let you know about it too!

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  3. You have every right to miss him and you know that! Any night apart is hard! In a couple months I have to move back home for 3 weeks because Mike will be done here and has to go to Texas for more training and dependents are not allowed at all ugh first line of his assignment said that. So I'm already not looking forward to it! I think it truly shows how much you love him and care about him if you hate it when he leaves and you miss him like none other when hes gone.. Trust me it's all good :)

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  4. *high five* Stephy! I can't wait for the day when the AF wakes up and puts us at the same base! And when that day comes... WATCH OUT, everyone! ;] It'll be WAY too fun!

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  5. That's silly. Sure, those wives have a lot to worry about and miss their husbands, and sure-no one else really will ever understand that type of worry/loneliness. But that doesn't make anyone else miss their spouse any less, or not have a right to miss their spouse.

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  6. Aww, Paige!! That's so sweet :] It's always refreshing to see an innocent civilian with common sense... but lemme tell ya: once you become an AFW, it turns into semi-cougar land. Each one of my friends will back me up 100% and agree! you gotta watch your back!

    am I right? or AM I RIGHT?! lol. I *LOVEEEE* my AFW buddies.. they're my bestest friends EVER! I wish I could hug them all tight and I wish even MORE that we were stationed together. Someday!!

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  7. oh dear, tell me about it! You sign that marriage license and it's ON! The claws come out.

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  8. How does that make any sense?! It seems like you have a lot of great AFW friends, but I don't understand how others wouldn't want to bond together for support instead of being snarky to each other. Ugh. Snarky women really annoy me lol.

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  9. Hehehehe!! I'll let my friends answer if they want ;] But being an AFW is 100x the drama of a CBS soap opera. But it's worth it to find best friends around the world that would do anything for you! :)

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  11. Tara, don't you sometimes feel like being a military wife is a little like Sharon & Phyllis? Just one big cat fight? ;] And there's always a crazy person like Adam...

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  13. LOL @ Daisy!!! She is off the wall!!! You're right.. you're SO right!!! My mom will get a kick outta this!

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  14. Uggh so many mean Air Force Wives.. It's like they never left high school! I can't believe some of the drama they cause.. I'm just glad we get along :)

    Someday Shannon we can only hope that we will be stationed together! If they need a Hebrew Ground Cryptological Linguist at Langley PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE tell me ASAP!

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  15. I love you. I know you can do it! :) At least this time, you have a cute pup to keep you company. Not that Piper can replace Mark, but you know what I mean. Maybe? I'm dumb.

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  16. I totally think it's fine to miss your husband when he's away. I miss my husband when he goes to WORK for 8 hours a day. I think there's something wrong when you don't miss your spouse when they're away, no matter where or for how long. I mean, that's just my opinion.

    I hope this week goes by quickly for you!

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  17. I'm sorry. :( I hate when my hubby is away from me for a few nights on business travel. Even ONE night is hard! Spray that cologne, hug his pillow, cry if you want to. No rocks, here!

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  18. Awww, that sucks about Mark being gone on a TDY. They're looking at possibly deploying some guys at my husband's shop because we're overmanned. *nail biting* Afghanistan is a bad BAD place to go! Hope the week flies by, chica!

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  19. I know that you will be fine while Mark is away on TDY. I know it, and you know it. You have every right to miss him. He is your husband! I will miss Matthew every time he goes TDY. He will be doing it a lot. Since he has a zero deployment rate, they will TDY him a lot. I know that you and Piper will be fine. If anyone tries to throw rocks at you, let me know. I'll bet them up! :)

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  20. oh Shannon I would be worried if you DIDNT miss you husband...and you are strong for have been apart from him so long in your first year of marriage...so there other AF wives...lol ps...how is Piper taking it? :)

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  21. Piper is all over me and wants to sit on my lap :) She naps all day long like a cat.. but she's okay!

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  22. Ack! I have to agree with you, I used to get into it with people over them saying you just get used to them being gone and become a pro at it, and I always disagreed. I am just like, no, you don't get used to it, you miss them whether they are gone a year or a few days! You never get used to it! Its not your job to get used to it, its your job to miss them! They think you should just become numb to it somehow...

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  23. Oh, by the way:

    "being an AFW is 100x the drama of a CBS soap opera"

    Yes...yes it is, ugh! My cousin's fiance is getting ready to join, I have forewarned her, lol!

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